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Fri | October 20, 2006

here it comes...

Friday blues. Most people have Monday blues. I don't mind Monday. But Friday is like, what the hell am I doing, and why is everyone's life so fulfilled but mine, why don't I even have a real job, real friends, or a real boyfriend? And more importantly why am I incapable of having a real job? Why do I buckle at every obstacle?

Today I tried to check it by going to get sashimi for lunch and then futilely strolling the mall for a good place to sit and do writing exercises. (noted: the mall has no good places to sit and do writing exercises, except for the restaurant on the third floor of Bloomingdale's, which is guarded by a snobby man, who is behind not a podium, like at a normal restaurant, but behind an entire receiving counter, like at a hotel.) It tempered the misery a little, but I can still feel it coming.

Also, I'm sorta losing interest in French. I mean, I'm not a Francophile. I don't know why I'm learning yet another European language. I don't want to be a dabbler so I won't abandon it just yet, but I'm already on the way out. Unfortunately if I am feeling this way now, French may go the way of the Chekhov project.

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