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Thu | October 12, 2006

des jours fériés que je ne vais pas célébrer

I don't really like this time of year, because although I enjoy wearing sweaters, it is holiday season. Halloween, Thanksgiving and my birthday, Christmas, New Years, Chinese New Years, Valentines. Now is the time all these holidays will come up one after another and I won't be celebrating any of them properly. Christmas I don't really mind missing, in fact it doesn't make sense for me to celebrate it and I shouldn't. I am kind of against Thanksgiving as well, because it represents colonialism.

But the others I support, and I probably won't be doing anything as cool as what I see on tv, which is depressing. Last year for Halloween I was a jedi, and went to a sparsely attended party at Eric's friend Will's. I also went to a party at Midori's apartment in the Village. Which was better and I should have stayed there just a while longer. I don't remember what I did for Thanksgiving and I'm pretty sure I didn't do anything for my birthday, and for Christmas the only celebration I had was the Kaplan holiday party. For New Years I hung out with Janica at Seth's friend's apartment, and Valentines I was with Josh. That was fun for the sushi part and not the rest.

The sad thing is that I'm grateful I had any plans at all for these holidays last year. Like, I didn't meet Josh until a few weeks before Valentines, and New Years only happened because Seth happened to be visiting NJ. I doubt I'll find my way over to the Kaps party, and even if I did, I'm not sure whom I'd hang out with. Maybe I'd find Ray and catch up with him. And my birthday, last year I recall trying to get a group together, realizing that I didn't have a cohesive group of friends, and giving up. Chrissa is around now so maybe we'll do something. I kind of feel like we did something last year but I have no idea what. This year I'm pretty sure I'm not going to try, for any of these holidays. Especially since I now view them as one bloc of "holiday season" and that way, it seems insurmountable. So I give up now, on all of them. I am just going to wait them out.

It will be half a year before they're all over, and then after Valentines, this particular reason to feel crappy kind of goes away for several months, only to return again the next year.

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