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Mon | November 28, 2005

another day at kap

I have no one to go to this poetry reading with tonight.* Of course, it would help if I had more than two friends.

I am wondering if I would prefer to be here full time, anyway-- to get up and do this relentlessly, day in and day out. I always come to the same conclusion: that there are pros and cons of every situation and I must play to the advantages of whatever I've got.

Advantages of not having a full time job:

• I am not a zombie
• Tomorrow I do not need to get up so early.
• There is something really mind-numbing about work, that incapacitates me the rest of the night. I just end up watching tv or doing I don't know what. I lose the whole day, not just the time I am here.
• I can stay up late

Disadvantages of not having a full time job:

• I feel weird.
• I waste a lot of time wondering why I am so bad at getting jobs, even the ones right in front of me
• It leaves me with too much to prove

*an example of bad sentence construction, I think.

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