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Tue | August 23, 2005
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I have been doing ok, despite not having much social contact. All I ask of myself is that I write a little every day and improve bit by bit. And I try to have fun and enjoy it, because that is a better motivator than anything. Last week I wasted some time being anxious about things, and that is never productive. I think part of it was my K class, but I think I should just not worry about them. The more I can marginalize that in my mind the better. I actually perform better when nothing is at stake. I have class tonight, we'll see what effect it has on me. Last week things were going fine until K kicked in.
So far I have had an ok day, and yesterday was fine also. I 'finished' a story and even did an exercise video just now. Tomorrow I will go to the city in the morning, I don't know whether the very early train or perhaps a little later (prolly a little later) and I will write in K-town for a few hours. I need to get out of the house every so often. Plus I have an errand of sorts to run, and it's kind of a waste of time, but I will make the most of it. At least it will be a change of pace. Then I will come home in time to watch tv. I have decided to let myself watch tv, occasionally, without guilt. But watching tv to kill time or avoid doing other things is not acceptable. It's a fine line between giving yourself a break and just wasting your time.
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